Dangerous Declaration!

 This Easter Sunday I will make a DANGEROUS DECLARATION! Why it is dangerous? Because back in my home, maybe it will be very controversial. There will be pro and contra for my decision. So what is the declaration? I will be BAPTIZED on this Easter Sunday!!!! What? YES, BAPTIZED! It’s not easy to tell everyone that I will get baptized this Easter Sunday. But I’m really grateful that when I told my mom, she just said, “oh.. kok dibaptis lagi?” and after I explain my story, she supported me.

Btw, why I said that this is a dangerous declaration? First, because of it’d be a declaration. Second why it’s dangerous? Because I already got baptized when I was 13. Yup. And I don’t really know, Dan gua ga ngerti kenapa hampir dari 99% orang yang tau kalo mau dibaptis, baik itu lewat video call, free call, call sampe chat ekspresi mereka dari J jadi K, even after gua uda jelasin reasonnya.. tapi gpp, gua ngerti kok mungkin karena koneksi internet yang ga begitu bagus atau some stuff. However I will tell you the story of Why and what make me decide to be baptized!

 I got baptized on June 18^th 2010. Waktu itu gua umur 13 tahun. Kenapa gua pengen dibaptis? Jadi waktu itu gua uda pelayanan. Dan I knew that there’s some desire about God’s thing inside of my heart. Entah ini relate atau nggak, tapi gua pengen banget buat ikut dalam perjamuan kudus. Jadi gereja gua dulu punya ketentuan, orang yang boleh ikut dalam perjamuan kudus itu yang udah dibaptis. Apalagi pas ngeliat mama papa gua dibaptis waktu itu.. nah pas ada event baptisan, mama rohani gua tanya ke ortu gua. trus ortu gua nanya ke gua. yaa gua mau banget laaa. Akhirnyaa dibaptis lah gua tanggal 18 Juni 2010.

Kalo ditanya makna baptisan waktu itu tau ga? Tau kok. I died with Christ, buried with Christ and rise with Christ. Itu gua uda ngerti. But only as a knowledge. But I don’t know how to apply it. I already believed in Jesus at that time. But only just believe. I believe Jesus is good, He died for me so I can go to heaven, BUT gua harus buat baik buat masuk surga. Kalo gua ga buat baik, wah, Tuhan marah. Gua bakal dibuang dari hadapannya.

Bahkan ada 2 ketakutan yang ngebuat gua ragu buat dibaptis waktu itu. pertama, gua takut dengan segala dosa” gua, gua bakal mati waktu proses baptisan, gara” gua ga cukup kudus buat ada dalam hadirat Tuhan sesakral itu. Kedua, my church gives a baptize name (My “John” name is got from the baptism). Biasanya nama baptis itu dapet dari prophecy orang yang doain gua. sempet terlintas ketakutan bahwa gua bakal dapet nama “Yudas” gara” semua dosa” gua. It was ridiculous but yeah, I thought about that. But when the day came, here I am. Still alive, and didn’t get a Judas for my baptize name.

Tahun demi tahun lewat, sampe akhirnya gua ikut kelas SPK, di gereja Abbalove. Gua ikut SPK bareng sama 4 sepupu gua. sampe ada 1 moment dimana ada sesi baptisan lagi. At that time, sepupu” gua dibaptis. Waktu pertanyaan itu dateng ke gua, sebenernya gua pengen di baptis karena alesan gua tadi. Tapi karena semua orang udah tau gua dibaptis, gua terlalu gengsi buat dibaptis lagi #confession. Setelah selesai dari kelas SPK, yak gua bertumbuh, kenal Tuhan lebih deket lagi, mulai ngebina di SPK. But in the 3 times period I involved in Baptize moment, my heart was touched. Rasanya sedih, seneng, terharu, dan yak it was the most amazing event when seeing someone declare their faith in front of many people. But what I knew before is, I only get baptized once, and I was the leader at that time.

Pikiran gua ga berubah sampe saat gua dateng ke Hillsong. Gua ga punya rencana buat dibaptis disini, karena gua udah dibaptis. But suddenly God shook my heart on the night service of vision sunday at Hillsong. At that time, kali itu gua bener nangis ngeliat orang dibaptis. Disitu muncul hasrat buat join the crowd for the genuinely declaration of my faith. Disitu gua bilang dalam hati, “God, if it’s come from You, open the way, I will get baptized on the next baptism event.”

1 month after vision Sunday, gua dapet info kalo Hillsong adain baptis pas Easter! Yes! Seneng banget gua waktu itu. But, emm wait. Ada 2 kemungkinan di Easter, service yang mana, Good Friday or Easter Sunday? Since I always have work on Friday, so it is impossible to get baptized if it was on that day. But we’ll make it this Easter Sunday evening service! So, here it is. Hillsong Doody Street 6PM March 27^th, 2016! Kalo lu bisa dateng di weekend ini, it’s an honor to see you there! J

That’s the story of my #DangerousDeclaration. Hari ini (26^th Maret 2016) waktu gua lagi cerita soal ini ke David, God gave me new revelation through him. Ada yang tau film fireproof? Mungkin kalo kalian uda pernah nonton kalian bakal tau ceritanya. Tapi ini garis besarnya, fireproof itu cerita tentang Caleb, petugas pemadam kebakaran yang punya konflik sama istrinya. Awalnya mereka hampir mau divorce, tapi lewat proses demi proses Caleb mulai berubah. Sampe akhirnya konfliknya selesai dan endingnya mereka ngadain pemberkataan pernikahan ulang.

Mungkin yang uda nonton pasti ngerti. Filmnya bagus. But this is the question, kalo mereka ga buat pemberkatan pernikahan ulang setelah Caleb bertobat, it doesn’t matter, is it? Trus gua tanya ke David, “So if the “second holy matrimony is not important, why there’s still a second holy matrimony in that movie?” This is the revelation, I don’t get it before. David cuma bilang “ask the director”. Dan gua bilang “selain karena scriptnya gitu”. At that time, I just realize, “ask the DIRECTOR because of the SCRIPT is only like that.”

What Hillsong said about baptism is like this, Baptism is not saving you. It only a public declaration of your faith. The most important thing is not baptism, but it’s your relationship with God. But I believe.. The DIRECTOR has written the SCRIPT as a desire in my heart to make a public declaration of my faith.

So, once again, thank you for all your prayer and support guys. Especially my parents! Even though this is my private decision, your support is look like a big blessing to me.  And if you are free this Sunday (March 27, 2016) please come to Hillsong Doody Street at 6 PM. Cheers!